Ashamed of who you are

[fufu ÷]

I hide quite a lot of things about myself. I often feel like i'm pretty much two separate people. There's Alex and there's fufu. I feel like fufu is the true inner me. The side of Alex that doesn't really show itself a lot of the time, since I don't really share many interests with people or act the same way. In fact other than sports, I share very little in common with my friends. I don't share my love of kpop, or wrestling with people, because they just don't have the understanding to comprehend it (although everyone knows i'm a wrestling fan, and is great about it). Pretty much nobody at all knows the extent that i'm a fan of my favourite Kpop groups (it's pretty extreme). I have to say though, i'm not ashamed of being fufu, but I am a little ashamed of Alex for not embracing fufu fully, because i'd like to be both at the same time a little more often.

[NWOldskool]

I just had a bad experience online, prior to when I joined any Wrestling forums. I use to play a TCG, and I was good buddies with people on the forum for it. They knew me by my real, I had them on my Facebook and shit, as well as Skype. Then one day, one of my 'friends' from there, used my Schools address to find the family with my family name closest to it. He called my house and shit, thought it was a joke, but I was creeped the fuck out. So, since then, I don't share a lot of personal details whatsoever. It's nothing personal, not ashamed of who I am whatsoever.

[NWOldskool]

I hide quite a lot of things about myself. I often feel like i'm pretty much two separate people. There's Alex and there's fufu. I feel like fufu is the true inner me. The side of Alex that doesn't really show itself a lot of the time, since I don't really share many interests with people or act the same way. In fact other than sports, I share very little in common with my friends. I don't share my love of kpop, or wrestling with people, because they just don't have the understanding to comprehend it (although everyone knows i'm a wrestling fan, and is great about it). Pretty much nobody at all knows the extent that i'm a fan of my favourite Kpop groups (it's pretty extreme). I have to say though, i'm not ashamed of being fufu, but I am a little ashamed of Alex for not embracing fufu fully, because i'd like to be both at the same time a little more often.

Oldsie is the inner me too, per se. I really don't have much in common with most of my friends anymore, especially since my two best friends have moved. One to Australia, the other to Toronto. I have other friends, but it isn't the same, you know? My friends know I like Hip Hop, but they don't know how much I love it and how much I know about it. And how much I know about music in general.

[Auday]

I am not ashamed of anything, People don't like me here, I have only like 3 friends.

I am different from people living here, I am the only one who watches wrestling here and people always tell me"How do You waste Your time watching wrestling dude? What's fun in 2 people getting beaten out" Hell I like it and I am happy with it.

If I wear a gym pants on school people make fun of me "Just because I didn't wear a jeans to get chick likeness"

Same goes for my hair for example, I mean are You really that much lifeless to comment about what I wear or what I like?

Also people here don't really care about gaming, They always tell me I have no social life because of gaming.

Simply arab world sucks, And I am happy about who I am so I could care less about what people think of me.

As for sharing personal stuff online I have no problems with it I already shared all I have here.

[NWOldskool]

I am not ashamed of anything, People don't like me here, I have only like 3 friends.

I am different from people living here, I am the only one who watches wrestling here and people always tell me"How do You waste Your time watching wrestling dude? What's fun in 2 people getting beaten out" Hell I like it and I am happy with it.

If I wear a gym pants on school people make fun of me "Just because I didn't wear a jeans to get chick likeness"

Same goes for my hair for example, I mean are You really that much lifeless to comment about what I wear or what I like?

Also people here don't really care about gaming, They always tell me I have no social life because of gaming.

Simply arab world sucks, And I am happy about who I am so I could care less about what people think of me.

As for sharing personal stuff online I have no problems with it I already shared all I have here.

I like you, Auday. You're a good dude.

[Auday]

I am not ashamed of anything, People don't like me here, I have only like 3 friends.

I am different from people living here, I am the only one who watches wrestling here and people always tell me"How do You waste Your time watching wrestling dude? What's fun in 2 people getting beaten out" Hell I like it and I am happy with it.

If I wear a gym pants on school people make fun of me "Just because I didn't wear a jeans to get chick likeness"

Same goes for my hair for example, I mean are You really that much lifeless to comment about what I wear or what I like?

Also people here don't really care about gaming, They always tell me I have no social life because of gaming.

Simply arab world sucks, And I am happy about who I am so I could care less about what people think of me.

As for sharing personal stuff online I have no problems with it I already shared all I have here.

I like you, Auday. You're a good dude.

I already said that I could care less about what people thinks of me, So I sinply don't care.

Just kidding I like You too, A real cool dude!

[Tamer™]

I am not ashamed of anything, People don't like me here, I have only like 3 friends.

I am different from people living here, I am the only one who watches wrestling here and people always tell me"How do You waste Your time watching wrestling dude? What's fun in 2 people getting beaten out" Hell I like it and I am happy with it.

If I wear a gym pants on school people make fun of me "Just because I didn't wear a jeans to get chick likeness"

Same goes for my hair for example, I mean are You really that much lifeless to comment about what I wear or what I like?

Also people here don't really care about gaming, They always tell me I have no social life because of gaming.

Simply arab world sucks, And I am happy about who I am so I could care less about what people think of me.

As for sharing personal stuff online I have no problems with it I already shared all I have here.

I like you, Auday. You're a good dude.

[Aero]

This is something that i'd guess more people than you realise go through.

for a LONG time, i felt very much like a loner, like i was weird, nobody cared about me etc (possibly thanks to being the youngest of 7 kids and as such, being spoilt by my parents more and as a result, being bullied for a few of my more suggestible years, by said older siblings)

the knock on effect to this was me being very shy/quiet at school, always paranoid at what people thought, always very private, always assuming that i didnt matter, and if people saw the real me, they would run a mile.

anyways, quite a few years later, i've discovered that, while i've never done anything necessarily noteworthy, I matter! the way i live, work, socialise etc. has a knock on effect on those around me, and those that i'm friends with (after years of me holding back a lot of my lifestyle choices, be it watching wrestling etc) like me all the more for being myself. people want to hang out with me, i've been best man at 4 weddings, with another 1 to go, not to mention groomsman at 2 other weddings.

i'm never going to be the most popular person, the fittest, the most attractive, but im popular with those who matter because im open about myself. even in work people see me as a leader of sorts, urging me for promotion etc.

i'm fully behind this topic. why be ashamed of yourself, you're effectively being ashamed of nothing... that said, if you killed someone then screwed your brothers wife, maybe keep those things quiet lol, but if you love wrestling, football, star trek, fat girls, the xbox one (lol) etc, dont be afraid to say, you'll soon find others who feel the exact same "oh my god, you do? i thought i was the only one! gutted hbk retired though" etc

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I'm ashamed to be a wrestling fan, none of my friends know that I like wrestling. They don't know I'm registered on 3 (4 including my own one) wrestling forums, they don't know about my wrestling YouTube channel. Everyone used to love it as kids, but now it's embarrassing. I've always wanted to get out of wrestling, a reason for me wanting to leave Smacktalks a couple of weeks ago and that I wanted to stop playing 2K14 (I haven't played in over 2 months) is because I don't want to like wrestling. But I guess I always will lol.

[Tamer™]

I'm ashamed to be a wrestling fan, none of my friends know that I like wrestling. They don't know I'm registered on 3 (4 including my own one) wrestling forums, they don't know about my wrestling YouTube channel. Everyone used to love it as kids, but now it's embarrassing. I've always wanted to get out of wrestling, a reason for me wanting to leave Smacktalks a couple of weeks ago and that I wanted to stop playing 2K14 (I haven't played in over 2 months) is because I don't want to like wrestling. But I guess I always will lol.

There's no stopping in being a fan , my brother says he doesn't like it yet he watches nearly half the PPV's each year , hmm...

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I'm ashamed to be a wrestling fan, none of my friends know that I like wrestling. They don't know I'm registered on 3 (4 including my own one) wrestling forums, they don't know about my wrestling YouTube channel. Everyone used to love it as kids, but now it's embarrassing. I've always wanted to get out of wrestling, a reason for me wanting to leave Smacktalks a couple of weeks ago and that I wanted to stop playing 2K14 (I haven't played in over 2 months) is because I don't want to like wrestling. But I guess I always will lol.

There's no stopping in being a fan , my brother says he doesn't like it yet he watches nearly half the PPV's each year , hmm...

 

I rarely watch WWE anymore, I torrent every PPV because it's a PPV! I rarely torrent RAW's and Smackdown's unless something big happens.

[DrJoeyMagnum]

I'm ashamed to be a wrestling fan, none of my friends know that I like wrestling. They don't know I'm registered on 3 (4 including my own one) wrestling forums, they don't know about my wrestling YouTube channel. Everyone used to love it as kids, but now it's embarrassing. I've always wanted to get out of wrestling, a reason for me wanting to leave Smacktalks a couple of weeks ago and that I wanted to stop playing 2K14 (I haven't played in over 2 months) is because I don't want to like wrestling. But I guess I always will lol.

are you embarrassed of wrestling because you think your friends would mock you for it?

[Arage™]

I hide quite a lot of things about myself. I often feel like i'm pretty much two separate people. There's Alex and there's fufu. I feel like fufu is the true inner me. The side of Alex that doesn't really show itself a lot of the time, since I don't really share many interests with people or act the same way. In fact other than sports, I share very little in common with my friends. I don't share my love of kpop, or wrestling with people, because they just don't have the understanding to comprehend it (although everyone knows i'm a wrestling fan, and is great about it). Pretty much nobody at all knows the extent that i'm a fan of my favourite Kpop groups (it's pretty extreme). I have to say though, i'm not ashamed of being fufu, but I am a little ashamed of Alex for not embracing fufu fully, because i'd like to be both at the same time a little more often.

True, I feel like two people at the same time too.

[Tamer™]

 

I'm ashamed to be a wrestling fan, none of my friends know that I like wrestling. They don't know I'm registered on 3 (4 including my own one) wrestling forums, they don't know about my wrestling YouTube channel. Everyone used to love it as kids, but now it's embarrassing. I've always wanted to get out of wrestling, a reason for me wanting to leave Smacktalks a couple of weeks ago and that I wanted to stop playing 2K14 (I haven't played in over 2 months) is because I don't want to like wrestling. But I guess I always will lol.

are you embarrassed of wrestling because you think your friends would mock you for it?

 

To be honest I wouldn't care if they found out when I was older , say 21 years old. As for now , I'm 14 ,in an all boys school which is pretty much based around mockery and violence and I really don't need any hassle from anyone so until further notice I keep my mouth shut about the things I like.

[jitz]

My teen years were during the NWO/Attitude era, everyone watched wrestling, and if you didn't you got left out in conversations on what happened on the last episode. If I grew up through today's wrestling I doubt I would be a fan, the shows these days (and over the past decade) are pretty terrible.

 

Ages ago, there was a member here, obviously a young kid. He was bragging about how he was going to take his replica WWE title belt to school and act like WWE champion. And kids wonder why they get beat up.

Edited April 24, 2014 by Strum la Frantique

[EnigmaticArtist]

I change myself so I can fit in sometimes, though. In real life, I don't really care for new people. Take Paul for example. If I knew nothing of this website and the YouTube channel and one of my friends introduced me to him, I probably wouldn't say anything unless he spoke to me. I'd talk to him then, I feel like I only want to know someone when they want to know me.

[Arage™]

I had an awesome thing and example to use but my Laptop jacked it all up.